Forgive Yourself For Not Forgiving Them

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November 4th, 2016

By Dawn Walton

Guest writer for Wake Up World

The dictionary definition of the word ‘forgive’ is: [verb] stop feeling angry or resentful towards (someone) for an offence, flaw, or mistake.

Stop feeling. Interesting.

A feeling is an energy and energy can’t be stopped, it can merely be transformed.

For many years I believed I needed to forgive my abuser to move on. I felt bad because I couldn’t forgive him. I felt worse because I didn’t want to forgive him. I felt bad because everything I read said I should forgive him to free myself up.

Was I dooming myself to a life of pain because I had no idea how to forgive?

If you try and contain an energy it causes damage. It builds up to something bigger and bigger, pushing at the edges of its container. If it remains inside of you it becomes toxic and damaging.

Keeping the pain inside is not a good idea. Just stopping the pain is really tricky. But what if there was an alternative approach to forgiving?

I realised that forgiving is an act. You have to actively forgive. This gives the person you want to forgive power over you while you still hold on to the hurt they created. If you can’t move on until you forgive them, that also gives them power over you.

This is not about anything external to you. This is not an active transformation where you have to make a conscious choice. There is no need to analyse the feelings, find meaning, reclassify, or see the other person as evil or bad. The other person is irrelevant in this process. You don’t need to forgive yourself for the role you played. You don’t need to stop feeling guilt, shame, responsibility. This is about what is inside of you, not what is external to you.

Letting Go

What if that anger, fear, guilt, hurt etc. could be redirected instead of stopped?

The principle of most martial arts involves redirecting energy. They don’t directly block an attack, but rather redirect the flow of an attack, using the other person’s strength against them.

As a practising Cognitive Therapist, my suggestion is to do the same with emotional hurt. Instead of attempting to stop or contain it, you redirect the flow of the energy.

The easiest way to connect with your subconscious, which is where the emotions sit, and let go of the pain is through visualisation. You could try this approach:

One: Firstly name the emotion. Pain, hurt, anger, Bob – whatever works for you.

Two: If that emotion had a colour, what would it be?

Three: If that colour was in a shape or an object, what would it be?

Four: Would it be moving or still? Is it 3D or 2D? Anything else you notice about it? Where is it?

Five: Now you have defined it as a thing, imagine transforming it. It could shrink or explode. It could flow out of your body. It could spin away. Zoom in or zoom out on it. It could get quieter if it has sound. You could even merge it into a nicer colour/feeling. It doesn’t matter how you see it working. Just change it, with the intent of allowing it to fully disappear at some point.

Six: Repeat this exercise on a regular

If, as you go through your day, triggers cause the pain to be recreated, repeat the visualisation whenever you need to. Your goal should be to bring yourself back into the present moment as soon as possible. You can’t time travel so you can’t change what has already happened. You can’t predict the future, so you don’t know what will happen next. All you can do is be present

Moving forward, when faced with challenges in your life, ask yourself “What skills do I already have, from everything I have been through, that will allow me to overcome this obstacle?” or if you find that you don’t already have the skills you need “What skills will I gain from overcoming this obstacle that will help me with future obstacles?”

And if the triggers keep making the pain return, give me a shout and I’ll help.

About the author:

Dawn Walton

Dawn Walton is the author of The Caveman Rules of Survival, and a practising Cognitive Hypnotherapist. She runs sessions in person out of offices in Dundee and Aberdeen in the UK, and internationally via Skype and Facetime; for most clients, a course of therapy is typically 2-3 sessions.

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