February 1st, 2018
By Stacy Vajta
Guest writer for Wake Up World
A while back I started hearing this inner voice asking me to draw… to create more art. It was something that as a kid I did all the time. But somewhere along the way, I stopped creating art. It seemed like if it didn’t have a particular purpose, then what was the point?!
I did create process art to work through my emotional ups and downs, but art for the sake of just making art wasn’t really happening anymore. I got pencils and pens, but I still didn’t create much. I kept getting into this place of perfectionism. I would get frustrated because what I was making wouldn’t look exactly right or I didn’t know quite how to do it anymore.
But my inner wisdom wouldn’t let up. There was something more going on than just my inner artist wanting to paint. This was about getting an energy flowing in my life… creative energy flowing.
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So I picked up some watercolor pens a few weeks ago. I thought painting might be easier than drawing. My inner critic might then take a rest. And so far I have loved the pens. I got some water pens too so I can do a little sketch and add some color if I want anywhere without an elaborate setup. Because for me to do this, it had to be simple.
With pens in hand, I gave myself the challenge to create a drawing every day. I haven’t quite gotten to it daily, but close. Some days it’s a little sketch; some days I spend more time on it.
Here’s what I’m learning…
I have to keep coming back to this place of permission to do something just for the sake of doing; to be a beginner and trust the process. That beginner’s mindset can be an uncomfortable place. I have to let myself be okay with screw-ups and a whole lot of ugly sketches!
It’s the doing, though, that’s important. And that’s the bigger lesson here. We create by going into the unknown. We manifest new things in our lives, things we don’t yet have experience with. Our own growth is about manifesting change as we step into the unknown. We have to give ourselves opportunities to practice that and to become comfortable with stepping into something that is unfamiliar.
Creating is a journey; even when you are creating new versions of you.
I think there’s a lot of energetic “talk” out there about being the vibration that you want to be… what you want to create. I think it confuses a lot of people because they believe that they must be familiar with the fullness of that expression, the end result of what they want to create in order to move forward. But if you don’t know what that energy really is, or what it feels like, then how can you possibly be that yet?
My guides always say, “Just begin; that’s how you’ll find your way.”
My inner wisdom wasn’t asking me to become an artist. She was asking me to practice creating and embrace all the messiness and uncertainty in that. She wanted me to practice not waiting for some awareness of my final destination, but find it as I went along. She wanted me to get back into the energy of creative process and observe how that gets played out in all I do.
Every drawing lets me practice who I am as a creator.
Leave a comment below. Let me know your thoughts.
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About the author:
Stacy Vajta is an energy coach and intuitive healer who loves nothing more than helping women love their (work) lives. She’s here for one big purpose: to help you figure out who you are meant to be and what you are meant to be doing.
You can find out more about her by visiting her website. You can also connect with her on Facebook, Instagram and YouTube.
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Thank you very much for this amazing post! In this journey of creating and manifesting, I am one of those who is still working on releasing attachment and a particular expectation from the result of the creative process it self. Still working on it and your writing made the concept easier to understand.
I just wanted to say thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for this article. It spoke to me so clearly. I was basically born a creative person–drawing, crafting, inventing,and most of all, music. I started playing the piano at age 7 and writing music jot long thereafter. As a teenager though, I went through some rough times and all that love of creativity and the motivation to do it in the first place just fell away. I started feeling that because I wasn’t the best at what I did, it wasn’t worth doing. I figured the odds of becoming a concert pianist at Carnegie Hall were pretty slim, so what was the point? Gotta love that inner perfectionist rearing it’s ugly head. By the end of my teenage years I had pretty much snuffed out everything creative about me and had become someone that my true inner self wouldn’t even recognize. To make a long story short(er), at 19 I was in a terrible car accident and severely injured. One of my injuries was a brain injury, which affected my personality, my memories, pretty much everything. For someone that had never felt adequate in any area of her life, I now was basically starting over as a beginner in so many ways. As is quite often the case though, one of the darkest moments in my life was truly a blessing in disguise, because after spending years floundering, I finally came to a place of acceptance and the facade that I had so carefully built over the years to disguise my true self, gifts, and talents was shattered and the person I always was created to be, those things that I was born with were all I had to go on. It’s been 11 years now since that accident, and while I still feel like a beginner in my life daily in so many ways, I was given the chance to make better choices, to embrace not being the best, being behind, and learning to do things just for the love of them! I was a given a gift of getting to know my true self in a way that most people never get to, and while it’s still hard and I struggle everyday, I’m now writing music again–in fact, I just wrote a special song for my parents when my dad decided to re-propose to my mom after 35 years! I’m not nearly as good a piano player as I used to be but that’s ok, because I’m learning in a whole new way. I just started drawing again and writing, and am just starting to try making jewelry, something I would have dismissed for not having an “end goal”. Just focusing on doing has had such an impact on my life and growth as a human being! I’m going to bookmark this article and refer back to it when I feel discouraged. Thank you so much for taking the time to share this, I’m sure it’ll be a blessing to many people as well as me! ?
Your post really resonated with me. I’ve tried many artistic endeavors, but the nagging sense that it’s a waste of time/non-producing continually derails my efforts to allow the impulse room to express, expand, and really get some momentum. After reading your article, I realized that expressing the artistic impulse, with no thought of its value of being ‘productive or the end result, would put me squarely, firmly, directly IN THE NOW with the effort/flow/experience! An “ah ha” moment to realize that for me the block is, in large part, about fear of being more wholly in the moment… Thank you for your post!